... kept a message inside my inbox, where i've been told that she had given him a second chance, and same other things occurred in their love story... what am i supposed to do then? why do i have this, urge to respond to that letter she sent to me... but what will be my purpose then? i'm still having second thoughts, third and fourth...

he wasn't my 1st ex-boyfriend, though, he's the recent one. I've known him for being a comedienne. He really makes me laugh, real hard. though it's corny or a green one, he can still make me laugh. He's been a true gentleman. He's kind, and nice too. Down-to-earth type, and what else? He is just extraordinary!!! and i loved him with that traits... no, i loved him just because he showed to me how caring he was... how thoughtful... how sweet... until...

until some things didn't end up how i wished them to be... i lost him, he lost me, and i don't have any idea if he also lost the two girls left.. two girls? yeah, i'm the f*cking fourth party!!!

i found out that all of that traits he showed to me were just lies... body of lies that i've learned to embrace.. and it made my heart, at least, break like crackers.. so crisp.

it took me a lot of effort to acknowledge myself that i don't deserve a jackass (poser, douchebag, moron, shithead,argh!!!!WHATEVER!!) like him.. actually it took me weeks only to realize he is.. counted months, proven that he really wasn't for me, not just because i'm bitter (i admit), it's just because..














i didn't loved him..